I've gotten to a point where I don't know what I am anymore. I constantly feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down. I feel like I'm going crazy and if my mind is an ocean, my thoughts are a tsunami. I can't sleep. I can't concentrate. I can't even think straight. I am a mess. I'm coming apart at the seams and it scares me.
I just need a day off...just one day, no work no one asking for my help no one depending on me, at work at home everywhere i just need a day off to shut my phone off and don't exist just relax and take a nap at the pool...yeah that sounds just perfect!
Sometimes this includes family. After spending years trying to make life better for my family I hit the breaking point. I care, but I just can't do it anymore. To love and care and bend over backwards with not so much as a fraction of the care or concern shown back to me I can no longer care the same. I am letting it go.