"Put me like a seal over your heart, Like a seal on your arm. For love is as strong as death, Jealousy is as severe as Sheol; Its flashes are flashes of fire, the very flame of the Lord. Many waters cannot quench love, nor will rivers overflow it; If a man were to give all the riches of his house for love, It would utterly be despised." Song Of Solomon 8:6-7
The whole entire time that eleven know River, all the adventures, every time they meet, eleven knows, in the back of his mind, the exact time River is going to die and there is no way he could stop it because its already happened. It breaks my heart that he has to lose another person and every happy moment he has with her the truth of the matter is always in the back of his mind.