They say that doing something the same way over and over and expecting a different outcome is a sign of insanity. Life is full of choices and it is those choices that will make the difference between a good or bad outcome and ultimately whither or not sanity becomes the master.
Stop playing the victim. I don't play that game. I don't put the blame for suffering that MY OWN choices created onto someone else! With every choice there is a consequence. Blaming others for your poor choices is for the weak-minded. Take responsibility.