Saddest thing instead of getting easier it's getting harder, cry every night begging God to bring you back, wake up at 2am screaming looking for you, but your no where near & all I can do is cry & hurt..
are u happy? is such a difficult question i always say yes, b/c i have friends i laugh at jokes, i go out a lot and have fun my life isn't as bad as it could be, and i don't have terrible problems. it could be worse. but then, one night @ 3 am when i'm alone still awake, lying in bed, thinking about life, i find myself crying my heart out suddenly i convince that nobody likes me, or nobody will ever like me. i feel horrible and i ? everything i had and i don't know if i was ever happy @ all
When something good happened, you were the first person I wanted to tell. When something bad happened, you were the first one I wanted hug. I still tell you all my good news! But I can't hug you anymore. I can't hear your sweet voice telling me everything will be ok. I cry as I lay awake at night thinking of all the time we spent together and all the wonderful memories we made. I miss you more than anyone knows, and it's killing me that we can't talk anymore.