Saddest thing instead of getting easier it's getting harder, cry every night begging God to bring you back, wake up at 2am screaming looking for you, but your no where near & all I can do is cry & hurt..
Not every night...but there are those nights that suddenly it hits and then I'm sobbing and I don't even know why and I'm convinced I'm a disappointment to everyone and I just want to give up on everything.
Which is why I dream of you nearly every night still. I still cry at night and think of you in the mornings. I can't see you without being overwhelmed with feelings and that's why I can never go back to our church.:
Describes me perfectly! "She knows he is not hers to have. Yet she is still in love with him and the thing that makes her cry at night. And the fact that, she couldn't help falling for him, and if she could she would forget about him, but she knows that isn't possible."