if only you only knew what survivors must hold inside. our pain is unlike any other you might have felt. it is a wordless pain, defying any attempt to find a description that could possibly define it. no such words exist.
"When I was a tween and starting treatment for bulimia, every time I said 'I feel fat' my therapist would say 'Glennon, fat is not a feeling. What are you really feeling when you say you're feeling fat? What's the feeling that's harder to say?'