I hate this .... Like when it feels like someone cares they are faking it and making me feel like crap because a lot of people wish they different. I just wish i didn't feel so alone, so hopeless, and so lost. I miss my life
It's starting again that pain I can feel it and I don't know if I'm having a bad day or everything is falling apart people annoy me sometimes but I wish I was a better friend so non of them would go away and I wouldn't have to feel so alone.
I have lived this and I will never waste time like that again. Time you can never get back. And you can feel so alone even when you are with someone. I would rather be alone then lonely with someone else. You should never feel that way in a good healthy relationship.
I feel broken inside and I just can't believe I'll ever feel any differently. I don't know how to heal myself. I try but just when I think I'm getting somewhere, it disappears like sand through my fingers. Will I ever feel whole again? Life has worn me down so much, I just don't know anymore. What keeps me going? I truly don't know Xx ❤❤
And why is that. Not for my ex, but for everyone around me. Why do I feel so alone in a crowd. The one time I feel truly happy is when I'm around the one I'm beginning to love, or perhaps beginning to want to love is better. And why can't I tell her so, despite how I feel. It's just fear, fear of rejection. Because if she says no, I'll again be broken.