I've had chances to do this, yet I've been too scared though I wasn't too scared to swing on a rope when there wasn't any water...I'm just weird like that. Of course, the fact that I got rope burn when my hands slid down the rope doesn't make me more eager to swing on more ropes, water or no water. yup. that's how I am.
I did this. I wanted to die. I contemplated telling my therapist that, how torturous this was, and how I wish they'd let me die because at least I could be in peace. And I'd be thin. The two things I want most. The biggest of the biggest dialectics. A paradox. I want to be peaceful and I want to be deathly thin. A recipe that doesn't work unless you are dead.