i'm just so scared to touch happiness only to have it taken away again maybe that is why i push everyone away and maybe thats why i'm so guarded but i don't think i can ever touch it without love and i don't know how to love not at all
Every day I do something to improve everything in my world. I work with my son. I encourage him, teach him, and push him. I work on keeping myself happy. I've been alone in the past. I'm not afraid of alone. I'm not afraid of anything. I do what I do to make everything what it should and can be. And in my heart, I hope she'll one day see that I always have been what she deserved. No matter what appeared to be, I never stopped doing. I am a better man than that.
I need some time alone to write and think which is what I have been doing. I love you and be strong. Do not allow his emotions to make you subservient. He was wrong and he needs to apologize. Now get some rest.
“Sometimes people hold a core belief that is very strong. When they are presented with evidence that works against that belief, the new evidence cannot be accepted. It would create a feeling that is extremely uncomfortable, called cognitive dissonance. And because it is so important to protect the core belief, they will rationalize, ignore and even deny anything that doesn't fit in with the core belief.” ― Frantz Fanon