"I want them to think that I will hide. So hide I will. And when I am ready, the darkness I have hidden in will blind them with so bright a light that they wished they had brought lanterns to light their way. Fire will have never burned so bright until that day is upon us all."
I actually lived this way for a long time, thinking it was the only way. Turns out you just need to wait for someone who knows how valuable your heart is, and love them with all your might. But I understand this sentiment; it's rough out there.