....it never hurts less to lose someone so special. It's more difficult losing someone as an adult. I have to continue on as if everything is ok. When really all I want, is permission to fall apart for just a moment.
Not even replacing you. I hope he replaces me with someone who makes him happy. But to know I'm losing him and there's nothing I can do about it was truly the most abhorrent realization it's ever been my displeasure to know.