I'm reminded of you everyday. Today your papi mentioned you, and my heart broke all over again. In the midst of everyone in my family having baby girls it gets even harder because I know that's what you would have been. The pregnancy symptoms were different from your brothers, and then I lost you, it's not fair.
I know I'm not supposed to show you how hard this still is for me. I'm supposed to just bottle it up inside and act like nothing ever happened, act like I wasn't devastated. But sometimes it still knocks the wind out of me and suddenly gets so hard to breathe and hold back the tears. ~ Pain, Heartache, Rejection, Grief, Broken