Many narcissists will suddenly erupt into what is called a narcissistic rage. This happens when the narcissist feels they have been slighted by not being the center of attention, unappreciated or misunderstood in the manner they deserve! Their rage is irrational & turns into revengeful hatred. The narcissist enjoys inflicting pain & getting even with the person who they believe has failed them.
YOU are depressed, hollow and defective because you were raised by a narcissistic mother. You have become like her ....your children recognize your mental illness when you cant and they want no part of it. So I am left raising your children and putting my life on hold because nurturing and love come naturally to me. Putting others especially my children and step children.. is how I was raised it is who I am.