This month we say hello to our 5 year anniversary walking hand in hand with this awful word. We like the word "barren" better, but either way it means for 5 years God has shut my womb and we, as a couple, have not been able to conceive. We don't know whether our barreness is permanent or temporary, for only God knows.
I feel this way about him when I don't see him when I know he is supposed to be and usually is there.... It's like I'm to scared to tell him how I feel because it might scare him off but I also get so worried that I'm going to miss my opportunity. It would really hurt to lose him even though he isn't mine.... :/