During the act forgetting is very protective. Down the road once away from the original situation, forgetting becomes harmful. There is method to help you face your flashbacks and defuse them called Rapid Reduction Techniques.
I want to be strong, I really do... just like everyone use to comment on how mentally strong they thought I was. But I still can't help bursting out in tears sometimes. It really isn't getting any better and I don't think it ever will.