Get strong! Be real & for gods sake stop all your lies & trying to be in our lives!! Your days of being anything at all to us ( especially him) is over! Move on! Get a hobby, a real job, an education & your OWN man!!
How to Stop Lying: The Ultimate Cure Guide for Pathological Liars and Compulsive Liars (Pathological Lying Disorder, Compulsive Lying Disorder, ASPD, Narcissistic ... Disorder, Psychopathy, Sociopathy) by Caesar Lincoln, http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00GKTSDZY/ref=cm_sw_r_pi_dp_I.JIsb05DT6GK
Narcissists Lie - "Your not trusting the narcissist will be turned around to paint the picture of YOU being insecure. You will be accused of being “jealous” / insecure / damaged / broken. All things you’re not – but things the narcissist is. You will begin to believe that you are insecure for not trusting them. You in turn, stop trusting yourself and your own perceptions and rely on someone who is lying to you."