You have pinned for over a year about being glad you ended it and so he could fix his relationship. Like you should be given an award lmao don't you know that helping a married man cheat is the definition of toxic? You're a fucking joke.
If you care about yourself you don't stay in bad relationships. Sometimes it's even a good relationship but you're in a bad spot for a relationship and need to have a relationship with yourself and god first before letting someone else in.
Toxic people will hurt you and then try to make you feel bad that you are mad or hurt or upset. It's known as blame shifting. Instead of taking accountability for their own actions, they blame others for having feelings. Abusive people do this