and sometimes, I get a reward of some kind that barely gets me through to the next gigantic dilemma. I can't pretend that I don't have help and sometimes (especially when I'm feeling extra depressed) I am given a super extra dose of care from my angels and God ....
Stuck somewhere between try harder and why bother.
I don't even think you know how much you mean to me, and how much I think about you. Because I can't even think of a moment when I'm not thinking of you. And then you ignore me like this... it hurts like crap. I should move on but I don't want to because you're honestly the most perfect person I've ever met.