I don't think he will ever know how he ripped my heart out when he tried to move on. I think he moved on a lot more than what he led me to believe. I still feel his guilt about the way he treated her... and others.
Even when I realised I could not trust you, I still could not stop myself from loving you. Even when I realised you didn't deserve me, I still felt like I deserved you, because I had already given so much of me and invested so much time and energy that it just didn't seem fair to have to walk away with nothing.