It's okay to grieve. It's okay to know that you loved deeply and are hurting because the one you loved is no longer able to be here with you. Embrace grief as a sign of your great love. Feel all the emotions that come with grief, experience it in the waves that it comes, and know that one day it will be okay. If not right now, then soon. - read: http://livepurposefullynow.com/how-to-thrive-in-times-of-trouble/
Reading the word is very important! God says to keep His word in our hearts so that when we need it's wisdom, it will be stored up in our hearts! God bless you, He loves you, and He made you the way you are for a purpose so don't try to change who HE made you to be.