When you look deeply into your anger, you will see that the person you call your enemy is also suffering. As soon as you see that, the capacity for accepting and having compassion for them is there. - Thich Nhat Hanh
During the act forgetting is very protective. Down the road once away from the original situation, forgetting becomes harmful. There is method to help you face your flashbacks and defuse them called Rapid Reduction Techniques.
Emotional abuse is a killer of joy, purpose, and life. I found healing in GOD, learning about narcissistic sociopath relationship abuse, and no contact. Seek professional help if you need it. A recovery from narcissistic sociopath relationship abuse.