It is unbelievably painful. You start to lose yourself and they try to make sure that you don't find yourself again. Leave the narcissist! After you do your world gets so much better. You lose that person, but you get the best gift of all. You get yourself back. You get your family back if you are lucky. DO NOT TURN BACK! RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN! I wish I had left sooner. I was praying every day for God to take my life. Instead, thankfully, He gave me my life back.