You should expect people to respect you back, though. Just don't expect them to be your best friend if you care about them. Let things unfold naturally. Let them invite you into their lives in their own time and comfort level.
Remove "our own" and insert your name.....yeah, you know who you are. Quit living your façade and fix the mess you're in and stop dreaming of my life. Protect your kids and your own mental health before you are more whacked than you already are.
Here is my hand, my heart, my throat, my wrist. Here are the illuminated cities at the center of me, and here is the center of me, which is a lake, which is a well that we can drink from, but I can’t go through with it. I just don’t want to die anymore.