But .. I *don't hate Death; I'm infinitely curious and slightly enthusiastic about the possibilities of an " after-Life ". At the same time, however, I am a little fearful of being disappointed and being detached from the people and things that I love. Oh, but then there IS the " how " .. I hope I go peacefully =].
Sometimes, i feel alone. And sometimes even my friends make me feel alone. I am happy most of the time, but some days just no. I hate being made fun of, and feeling worthless. since 7th grade i never felt this depressed. My best guy friend is the only one who can help me, hes been through everything and always cares about me. he has such a big heart. and i love him.