Keep the faith. Keep your eyes on Jesus! "Focus on Me, Not the Storm" quote I can not begin to explain how important this is when you lose you child, without my constant focus on Jesus I would be lost.
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Pv this is a reminder that I'm never alone! I can do this with God's help!
I'm in that in between stage. The point where you give it up and become broken hearted. How long will it take for him to surprise me with that big old teddy bear. Trust in God. Give Him everything. He has something better planned for you.