You have no idea the damage you have done. I would never wish this pain on anyone. How can a person be so evil and hateful. After all the years, you left me alone with my illness. You selfish bastard. You never loved me. You don't destroy someone you love.
This is messed up. Sometimes you should tell people how much they're worth or how much you love them or how much you need them while they're here, not after they've died. An occasional reminder of your worth or importance is never a bad thing. You never know. It could save a life.