I am nothing more than a convenience for you when there is nothing else going on and I am not going to do it anymore. "You saw me hurting. You noticed the pain, and you didn't do shit. That's when I realized you didn't love me.
Exactly my first year of marriage. And why my heart broke. It wasn't even that I was crying. It was that he had always cared so much if I shed a tear and then he went to sleep with me sobbing nightly on the couch. So much truth to this.
It was one thing to be attacked by someone you hated, but this was something else. This was the kind of hurt that could only be inflicted by someone you loved, who you thought loved you. It was sort of like being stabbed from the inside out.